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Productivity While Being On Disability

So, a lot of people think that being on disability is “easy” and that it must be “great” to stay home all the time. This however, is far from the truth.

What happens when you run out of things to occupy your mind? Depression. Being at home all the time is more of a burden, you become isolated from the outside world. If you asked me what being on disability is like, it’s truly one of the most lonely and boring experiences ever. Not working causes self esteem issues. It makes you feel worthless and like a waste of space.

How does one get past this obstacle?

Try to be as productive as possible.

Lately I have been crafting, looking at a local MS group I want to join, and I’ve been reading. It’s hard some days but something such as cleaning can make you feel a lot more productive. Be sure to get out of the house more often too; I’ve been working on this myself.

My best friend had a wonderful idea. I now have a planner. In that planner I have a “to do” list which makes my life a lot brighter. If you make a list or write what you did the entire day you’ll see how even the smallest thing on your list makes you feel knowing that you did something.

Productivity is crucial. Don’t let your depression and disability win. Keep fighting, and keep moving. It’s not going to be easy, but it will most definitely be worth it.

-Rebecca Elizabeth (A Punk With MS)

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MS; Fight or Flight?

When something traumatic happens, every human being in existence has a fight or flight response. To learn more about the psychological definition you can click here

This could be for extreme circumstances but in this instance, I’m talking about MS. In regards to my own MS, the personal response I have is to fight. To run away could mean deterioration of my health and my well being.  Not everyone has this particular response which brings me to an extreme sadness to think about. I wish there was a way to reach out to every single person who is in that emotional position. MS is not the end of the world. I learned this from my mother, who has had an MS diagnosis since I was 5 years old. Not being raised with that mindset could have made me a completely different person, and for that I am grateful. I was exposed to the reality of it. My mother didn’t ever “hide” it from me. Some parents may not agree with this type of parenting but for me, it saved my life and my future.

If you feel like running from your diagnosis it could mean that your future will be that much tougher. Take care of yourself, know that the treatments that are available will improve your quality of life. I know doctors appointments are a pain (we have so many!) but the end result will be worth it, I promise.

With Love,

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Rebecca Elizabeth (A Punk With MS)

 

 

 

 

Season Changes.

MS and the heat have been quite the unfriendly combo to my body. When the humidity gets high I usually hermit out in the comfort of my air-conditioned living room. Fall being soon is quite the relief to me (as it is probably to some of my fellow msers too)

 

For those who don’t know, people with MS are usually hot/cold sensitive and lack temperature regulation in their bodies. If a room is too hot or too cold be sure to let your MS friend know so they won’t overheat or freeze. For me personally I really can’t tell when a room is too hot/cold or if it’s just me. I even have difficulty when it comes to shower temperature. I have to emphasize: not everyone with MS has this symptom but a lot of us do.

Between Therapy, self care, and doing my best not to go completely insane I’ve had my hands full.

Despite of our hardships with weather; I decided to make a list of the little things that are enjoyable especially during a day when the temperature is too extreme for you to go anywhere.

Netflix/YouTube (I’m huge on Rhett and Link lately. I also have a huge documentary kick going on)

Coffee. Nectar of the gods.

Watching the leaves turn color (I live in beautiful New England so this is highly enjoyable)

Sitting on the couch while listening to an audiobook

Craft. Make jewelry, crochet, or pick up a different hands-on activity.

Take a nap. Who doesn’t love naps?

Have a horror movie marathon with snacks.

Write poetry or draw something you’ve been thinking about a lot.

Start a journal.

Bake homemade bread or pastries.

I hope these ideas help. Please be sure to rest and take care of yourselves especially through the upcoming weather changes. Your body will ache and maybe go haywire for a bit but everything will be okay ❤ When winter strikes be sure to come back and read this list. Staying inside to to avoid hot/cold sensitivity is the absolute worst. It can get really boring.

-Rebecca Elizabeth (A Punk With MS)

 

 

 

 

The Old Me, A Memoir

I miss the days where I didn’t have to pay attention to what I ate, or how hard I pushed myself.

I miss the times where I bathed in the sun with not a care in the world. Nowadays when I’m in the heat too long, I overheat and feel ill.

I miss not having so many doctor’s appointments and having a completely open schedule to do as I please during the days I didn’t have to work.

I miss working a lot.

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I miss the days when my body would not attack itself, the days without dealing with one migraine after another, and the days without having to take so many pills.

Today I say goodbye to the old me, and focus on today the best that I can. I will forever miss the old me, but a part of her will always remain. You can say goodbye to the old you too, it doesn’t mean that you have to completely forget her/him. Take care of yourself and try to accept your current situation  (as tough as it may be.) Dwelling on who you used to be all the time can reopen old wounds and cause you even more unnecessary pain. You can do it, I believe in you.

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– Rebecca Elizabeth (A Punk With MS)