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I Never Knew I Was “That Sick” A Mental Health Story

Some people go years wondering what went wrong in their lives to trigger a mental illness. Some people know what went wrong but choose to not accept it.

Childhood trauma?

Abandonment?

Mental/Physical/Sexual abuse and manipulation?

These types of issues can build up over the years and wreak havoc on your soul. The longer you hold it all in the worse your mental health will be. If you have a lot of baggage to carry, please see a therapist as soon as possible. Don’t go about your mental health like I did.

I thought I was going about my mental health correctly, but I wasn’t. I would only go to therapy when I felt I “needed to” instead of seeing someone on a regular basis. With a lot of traumatic history, this was my first mistake.  Outside of therapy, I would stuff all of my emotions deep down where no one could ever find them. I would swallow sadness and show nothing but smiles because I didn’t want to let the people around me down.  Or, I’d get really angry, upset, and say hateful words to those I loved the most. I would push them away intentionally.

I was originally prescribed a mood disorder medication as a teenager but stopped taking it when I thought to myself “I don’t need this anymore because I already take an antidepressant” this was my second mistake. Year after year my moods would swing constantly. Bad days, then good days, then mixed days. I was labeled with major depression, anxiety and PTSD with disassociative features. All of my therapists thought the mood swings were trauma related.

They are, but here’s the real kicker:  I also have a history of Bipolar 2 Disorder in my family. Due to my traumatic childhood, my psychiatrist also thinks I may have Borderline Personality Disorder or Bipolar 2 Disorder.

Not in a million years would I ever feel that I would have those two diagnoses brought up to me. I’m still waiting for my mood stabilizer to work better. My psychiatrist will diagnose me officially from there.

My moods have ruined a lot of moments in my life and a part of me wishes I could get those years back with proper mental health treatment.

The moral of this story is that you need to take care of yourself especially if you have a mental illness. Go to therapy, see your psychiatrist, take your meds, do what you need to do to remain mentally healthy. You may need more help than you realize. The only way to get the most accurate diagnoses and the best care is to make sure your appointments are a routine. Don’t be afraid to get help because there are many options and many people who understand exactly what you are going through. Recovery is possible.

With love,

-Rebecca Elizabeth A Punk With MS

Getting Yourself Through Tough Times

We’ve all been there. Some days you may feel like you’re simply living day by day, other days you may feel like you truly have a purpose for your existence. Dealing with emotional and physical issues can be a burden that follows you throughout the journey of your life, but it can also empower you. Here is a list of ways you can get yourself through the more challenging times.

1. Be Mindful Of Your Emotions

Okay, so let’s get straight to the point. Some days your mind may race, it also may wander. Sleepless nights may have you tossing and turning, you may even be in physical pain. Regardless of your situation, I want you to listen closely to these words: You do not have to be a prisoner of your own emotions. What does that mean? It means that you can be mindful of negative thoughts that may  pass through your mind, but you do not have to allow them to cage you. The mind is a powerful thing, so be mindful of those thoughts but realize that they are only the darker and more distressed parts of you talking (especially the negative thoughts you may have about yourself)

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2. Find A Support System To Help You Deal With Your Mental And Physical Issues

It’s not an easy path but we all need a hand sometimes. There are numerous outlets that can help us during our tough times especially during this technological time and age. There are many different online support groups on places like Facebook and many other places online that you can express your issues with other people also struggling without judgment. If you can’t afford therapy there’s even a free website called 7 Cups of Tea that has numerous volunteers (some who work in the mental health field) who can help you cope with your distress. Sometimes it’s just nice to have someone to talk to who may even also know what it’s like to have mental or physical issues.  This type of interaction will help you achieve your personal goals in improving your emotional well-being and is especially helpful for those with social anxiety.

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3. Do An Activity That Makes You Happy

When you’re not emotionally in a positive state of mind or are limited physically to do as much as you’re used to, it’s VERY important to keep productive. If you can’t do much in your current state, doing something as simple as meditation for a few minutes a day  or maybe listening to an E-Book can drastically improve your mood. I find books personally hard for me to focus on some days, so listening to someone read it is super helpful when those unfocused days hit me. There’s also yoga, poetry, drawing, photography, and many different activities that you can do. If you don’t like those ideas maybe start binging on your favorite Netflix or Hulu show!

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One last thing I want to cover; Don’t overwhelm yourself or put too much pressure on yourself to do all of these  listed things at once because recovery takes time. Self care is  important, so please don’t forget that you are just as important as anyone else in this world.

-Rebecca Elizabeth A Punk With MS