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I Never Knew I Was “That Sick” A Mental Health Story

Some people go years wondering what went wrong in their lives to trigger a mental illness. Some people know what went wrong but choose to not accept it.

Childhood trauma?

Abandonment?

Mental/Physical/Sexual abuse and manipulation?

These types of issues can build up over the years and wreak havoc on your soul. The longer you hold it all in the worse your mental health will be. If you have a lot of baggage to carry, please see a therapist as soon as possible. Don’t go about your mental health like I did.

I thought I was going about my mental health correctly, but I wasn’t. I would only go to therapy when I felt I “needed to” instead of seeing someone on a regular basis. With a lot of traumatic history, this was my first mistake.  Outside of therapy, I would stuff all of my emotions deep down where no one could ever find them. I would swallow sadness and show nothing but smiles because I didn’t want to let the people around me down.  Or, I’d get really angry, upset, and say hateful words to those I loved the most. I would push them away intentionally.

I was originally prescribed a mood disorder medication as a teenager but stopped taking it when I thought to myself “I don’t need this anymore because I already take an antidepressant” this was my second mistake. Year after year my moods would swing constantly. Bad days, then good days, then mixed days. I was labeled with major depression, anxiety and PTSD with disassociative features. All of my therapists thought the mood swings were trauma related.

They are, but here’s the real kicker:  I also have a history of Bipolar 2 Disorder in my family. Due to my traumatic childhood, my psychiatrist also thinks I may have Borderline Personality Disorder or Bipolar 2 Disorder.

Not in a million years would I ever feel that I would have those two diagnoses brought up to me. I’m still waiting for my mood stabilizer to work better. My psychiatrist will diagnose me officially from there.

My moods have ruined a lot of moments in my life and a part of me wishes I could get those years back with proper mental health treatment.

The moral of this story is that you need to take care of yourself especially if you have a mental illness. Go to therapy, see your psychiatrist, take your meds, do what you need to do to remain mentally healthy. You may need more help than you realize. The only way to get the most accurate diagnoses and the best care is to make sure your appointments are a routine. Don’t be afraid to get help because there are many options and many people who understand exactly what you are going through. Recovery is possible.

With love,

-Rebecca Elizabeth A Punk With MS

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Cannabombz: A New Bathing Experience

Today I am going to share an open and honest review of a cannabis product that I purchased myself recently. I was not asked to make a review but had such a positive experience with this product that I absolutely HAD to share!

 

I had the pleasure of soaking in Cannabombz scent “Aquamarine” today.

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This was one of the most relaxing experiences I’ve ever had. This bath bomb is infused with highly concentrated CBD (Canna) oil, home-grown herbs, Epsom salt crystals, and eucalyptus oil. The owner of Cannabombz grows all of her herbs with love and care, she also loves using different essential oils.  The eucalyptus in this particular bath bomb makes your skin feel minty fresh in the water, and your body is completely relaxed within 15-20 minutes of soaking.

 

 

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(look at the beautiful detail of this bath bomb!)

 

I soaked for 30 minutes and was most definitely NOT disappointed. When I got out of the bath my body felt heavy, euphoric, and relaxed. One of the most important things to me when trying a cannabis product is that it helps with pain relief. Living with Multiple Sclerosis has my body in constant spasms that don’t go away on their own. This product won’t only help people like me but anyone out there in general who lives with chronic pain. If I had to rate it on a 1-10 scale it most definitely would be a 10 for me.

The customer service was also wonderful. My bombs came with a tracking number and any questions I had were answered immediately! Her bath bombs come in different sizes, I purchased a small because my tub is small! She truly cares about her customers and takes her job very seriously. This is something we truly need in the Cannabis community.

Here is a link to a video I posted on Instagram of the Bath Bomb in the water

If you would like to try this product out for yourself, message Cannabombz on Instagram here! Prepare for the relaxation of your life, you most definitely have to “soak it to believe it”!

 

-Rebecca Elizabeth, A Punk With MS

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Old Me, A Memoir

I miss the days where I didn’t have to pay attention to what I ate, or how hard I pushed myself.

I miss the times where I bathed in the sun with not a care in the world. Nowadays when I’m in the heat too long, I overheat and feel ill.

I miss not having so many doctor’s appointments and having a completely open schedule to do as I please during the days I didn’t have to work.

I miss working a lot.

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I miss the days when my body would not attack itself, the days without dealing with one migraine after another, and the days without having to take so many pills.

Today I say goodbye to the old me, and focus on today the best that I can. I will forever miss the old me, but a part of her will always remain. You can say goodbye to the old you too, it doesn’t mean that you have to completely forget her/him. Take care of yourself and try to accept your current situation  (as tough as it may be.) Dwelling on who you used to be all the time can reopen old wounds and cause you even more unnecessary pain. You can do it, I believe in you.

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– Rebecca Elizabeth (A Punk With MS)